B2 Bumpdate: 20 Weeks

It seems like when you hit 20 weeks in a pregnancy that things fast forward.  When you are in the first trimester and sick as a dog it's like the weeks crawl by and then poof you're halfway through your pregnancy and the weeks start coming even faster.  Is it just me?

This week has been an emotional one, my hormones hit hard and I was your typical pregnant cry baby.  First baby emotions hit hard.  Mykenzi has been growing up so fast and especially the last couple of months.  I'm loving this age and I'm so scared that having another baby will take me away from her or change her personality and I don't want either.  Typical second pregnancy feelings from what I understand, but that didn't stop me from crying and eating my sorrows away.  The realization of being halfway through this pregnancy has me trying to soak up every single second that's left of Mykenzi being an only child.  I'm scared of two, I'm scared of the chaos, I'm scared of being able to handle it, while at the same time I'm so excited to watch Mykenzi grow into a big sister, experience life with a son, and watch our family evolve into a family of four.  My feelings are literally everywhere and I can't seem to keep the emotions reigned in either. All a part of the process, I suppose.

The other half of my emotions I can thank anxiety for.  I'm such a 5 year old when it comes to storms. If you've been a longtime reader or know me in real life then this is one of the things you've come to know about me.  I don't do thunderstorms and I surely don't do any type of Tornado warnings and I was graced with both this week.  We had a strong system move through and of course it had to be a night when you cant see any tornadoes coming at you.  I don't know exactly where this fear comes from or where it started but I can tell you that pregnancy heightens this fear like crazy!  If Xanax were safe in pregnancy, I probably would've taken about four of them.  A tornado touched down about 2 miles from where my Mom lives and we basically watched it live on the Local New's Bridge Cam.  Needless to say, we got no sleep til about 1am when everything was said and done.  Not my favorite week for weather on the Gulf Coast.

Just for fun, I thought I'd take a stroll down memory lane this week and look at what 20 weeks looked like with Mykenzi in 2014.

How far along?  20 weeks, 4 days

Total weight gain?  I forgot to check this week so we'll still say about 8lbs.

Maternity clothes?  No, but I did buy a bunch of loose shirts so I can breathe!

Stretch marks?  Not yet. Yay!

Sleep?  Eh.  It hasn't been the greatest, but it hasn't been the worst this week either.  I just can't find a comfortable position.

PEAK of the week?  New comfy clothes!  Nothing like a shopping trip to brighten any girl's week!

PIT of the week?  The storm! My nerves just can't take it!

Big Sister?  Doing great! She started going to sleep on her own, hence Momma's emotional breakdown.  She's been rocked for every sleep since she was born and this week has fought me tooth and nail.  I lay her in her crib and she's out within 10 minutes.  I'm so proud of her and I've been waiting for her to be able to do this, but I still wasn't ready! 

Daddy?  He's amazing and seriously doesn't get enough credit.  He works all day and comes home and takes baby duty and let's me sleep as often as he can because he knows how much trouble I've been having in the sleep department.  I seriously wouldn't survive this pregnancy without him.

Miss anything?  Nothing really comes to mind except for alcohol.  I could've really used a stiff one after that storm.

Movement?  Lots of movement!  His movements are starting to get bigger and bigger and they are just that ... movements.  He kicks but definitely not as often as his sister did.  I feel him flip and move more than I feel kicks which is a weirdly neat feeling.  It's like a roller coaster drop feeling every time he moves.  It makes me giggle.

Food cravings?  SWEET.  I have wanted something sweet all week and nothing has cured that craving.  I've had cookies, candy, cakes, and I just can't seem to find that perfect sweet tooth craving.

Anything making you feel sick or queasy?  Not really.

Gender?  Boy!  We get to know for sure in a few weeks! I can't wait!

Symptoms?  My skin is like the Sahara Desert! So Freaking DRY!  

Belly button in or out?  Flat.

Happy or moody?  Happy but emotional this week.

Looking forward to?  Finally saying Baby Boy's name!  I snuck in his initials into a status update, can't wait to say his whole name.  RLB - any guesses?